The voice in my head

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I keep having these fucking phases
Zoning into sadness
Being a happy little fuck
There lies no in between

I am happy one minute
Life is great and things work out
The very next day
I feel like the walls are crushing me

Suffocation
Anxiety
Sadness
Everything is on the ground

My mother tells me
To recite a prayer for my ill heart
But I don’t find it to be ill at all
I also don’t find it healthy

It is in between
Stuck in the rut of sadness
Jumping into happiness
And sleeping with an unjust desire to die

If I could then I would
Tell the world what happens in my mind
But words fall short
And sometimes I scare others with my thoughts

So I pen down what I think would suit
The world will eat up sadness as my muse
When it isn’t sadness at all
It is the voice in my head

A voice that is
Terrified
Happy
Sad
All at the same time that is all

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About Bano

I’m trying to find a better introduction but since, I can’t? Hello, welcome to my blog. I decided to write after a series of therapy sessions and a very serious manic episode. This blog is a dedication to how I have evolved as a person. I might someday start a commercial blog but no right now. Everything posted here *in my broken grammar and shit English* is how I have turned out as a person. Anyways, that is it. Bye!

6 responses »

  1. If you feel sad for no reason all of a sudden, its probably the hurt you caused to a heart that u cant even remember. Read it somewhere

  2. Oho you’ve put it into words.
    I’ve never been able to properly describe what my brain goes through… But here it is.
    I swing between happiness and sadness too.
    And there’s a lot of anxiety in between.
    And confusion.
    And the fact that my brain isn’t alright just upsets me and depresses me even more… 😦
    Honestly i don’t know what to do either.

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