Solitude is your new best friend

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I made my way through the crowd

Avoiding eye contact

Friendly smiles in the corridor

Avoiding it all

Driving back home felt more like an escape

My gut was restless

But that is all a man can do

When the walls seem to close down on you

And it becomes hard to breath

 

The drive home was slow

I wasn’t in  particular hurry to go

Part of me wished to go back

Don’t face the demons of solitude

But to me solitude was better than what I left behind

 

It doesn’t have to make much sense

If you ask me?

I kept cursing myself  all the way back home

Coward, little cunt

Running away from people

But part of me knew that within the little chamber

I confine myself in

Weakness is  better

Than a smile in the crowd

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About Bano

I’m trying to find a better introduction but since, I can’t? Hi! I’m Sheher Bano Zafar and I write. I write not because there lies aspiration to be a writer someday but because, it keeps me sane. I love the color silver, black and grey. I also realize that they fall under the same color tone. Whatever, I write is a result of my 3 a.m blues or insomniac depressive tendencies. I can’t write during the day. I’m addicted to caffeine and well, anything and everything (if I like it). Also, I suck at conversations. I bite my nails. Most of the time I’m clueless about the world around me. I love politics and youth activism. People tell me that art and politics don’t belong in the same mind, but I’m passionate about both. One day I might be drawing on a canvas or writing a story and the very next day I will be heading off to attend a summit on the role of youth at the United Nations. I have multiple people trapped in the same body. Each side does try to express itself, in minimal ways if not fully. I’m currently going through a rough patch in life. I guess, I’m adjusting to the world through multiple perceptions. I absolutely love talking to myself because an expert opinion is always required. Most of the time, I just play scenarios in my mind that would never happen. I’m very contradictory in my thought process and actions but it is okay, people get to be what they want to be as long as no other soul is hurt. Peace out!

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